Back to the City
I am exhausted. But I am sleeping without Ambien. Ambien and rock solid faith were all that got me through last week...and hey, I lost ten pounds. Ugh. Be careful what you wish for.
As the next days unfold, there are many stories...so many of grace and God's fingerprints on our lives. But kicks also. I think I'll stick with the amazing stories of grace for now.
I have been thrust into a drama that I really don't want a leading role in. I can't really talk about it for the moment, but it is evil. Just plain evil, and is going to require much time and energy which will be a distraction to the other important people and commitments in my life.
I am learning all about dependence from the events that are unfolding. I am learning what it is to truly live one step at a time and not try to figure out the next five steps. Now, this is very, make that VERY hard for me, BUT...it is a place of release and peace to know I don't need to figure it out. Suffice it to say right now that I NEVER expected to be in the position I am currently in.
I miss my dad, and actually have lots of him in me. My mom is a mess. My husband is incredibly supportive and my girls miss me when I am not there to pick them up after school.
Today I had to go back to NYC to take care of some details. I need to go back Thursday with my mom who needs to sign some documents. Ugh.
Erin came with me. What a blessing. The company is wonderful, and what a trooper. We had a long walk up fifth avenue, stopping at the Lotus Club where my dad and I went to the wonderful dinner the end of January and then to the gallery where he fell.
In my next post I will write about what happened. And then tell the stories of grace.
Peace.
As the next days unfold, there are many stories...so many of grace and God's fingerprints on our lives. But kicks also. I think I'll stick with the amazing stories of grace for now.
I have been thrust into a drama that I really don't want a leading role in. I can't really talk about it for the moment, but it is evil. Just plain evil, and is going to require much time and energy which will be a distraction to the other important people and commitments in my life.
I am learning all about dependence from the events that are unfolding. I am learning what it is to truly live one step at a time and not try to figure out the next five steps. Now, this is very, make that VERY hard for me, BUT...it is a place of release and peace to know I don't need to figure it out. Suffice it to say right now that I NEVER expected to be in the position I am currently in.
I miss my dad, and actually have lots of him in me. My mom is a mess. My husband is incredibly supportive and my girls miss me when I am not there to pick them up after school.
Today I had to go back to NYC to take care of some details. I need to go back Thursday with my mom who needs to sign some documents. Ugh.
Erin came with me. What a blessing. The company is wonderful, and what a trooper. We had a long walk up fifth avenue, stopping at the Lotus Club where my dad and I went to the wonderful dinner the end of January and then to the gallery where he fell.
In my next post I will write about what happened. And then tell the stories of grace.
Peace.
Labels: Ambien, dependence on God, missing dad
posted by www.kathypride.com at
12:03 AM
4 Comments:
I know you have much more important things to do than write stories, but I am waiting with baited breath to hear of God's working...Be always prepared to give a good report. The stories of God's grace strengthen others and it's good to document them, because with all the stress you are dealing with, you WILL forget.
Hey, can you guys pray for this manuscript? Kathy passed it to me late Sunday night to cut her words that she needs by March 1, and I am thrilled about doing it. However, the evil one must not want me to because it has been one thing after another preventing me from doing it. Sunday night it was the stomach bug in our house and so I printed part of it to take to work to do at lunch. But that didn't happen. And then last night our power went out and the laptop was low on battery. And the copy? Suddenly missing! I remember putting it right there on the kitchen table with my shopping list sticky note on it. Now gone. It must be good or he wouldn't care so much about delaying it! Please pray. Thanks!
Shelly and Kathy-
Praying for you!!!! I agree that it must be amazing for the forces of evil to work so hard against it!
love and many, many prayers,
pam
Kathy, you amaze me! I know for sure--even as a writer--I wouldn't be able to do what you are doing..."penning" your thoughts the way you do. And this comes from the instructor who teaches, "Writing to Heal."
I love you!
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