Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Jags of Sadness

The past twenty four hours I have been really up and down. I miss my dad a lot. I am in a city where there is so much he would enjoy and where we could really have fun together.

But there are reminders of life's fragility all around, especially in the faces of homelessness that abound in this city. There are many.

Some are young. Some old. Some have animals. I have stopped to talk to a pair with a dog, Buddy, a couple of times. I shared some food with them, and they were truly appreciative. The first time I stopped, there was a third guy with them. We spoke about God and love, and one of them pulled out a Bible and started talking about how he had been to a Bible Study the night before and left feeling a little better, a little more hopeful.

As we were sharing some thoughts a woman walking up the street started to scream at them, calling them ignorant and demanding they get out of her neighborhood. It just made me feel so sad. How human beings can treat each other so badly. But I shouldn't be surprised. I have witnessed it and in fact am living through a situation right now that is the height of selfish greed.
We agreed that this woman knew not of what she spoke, and shared more about Jesus and his love for all.

I imagine it is a bit easier perhaps being alone and on the street with the unconditional love of a dog. I asked about feeding Buddy and they said that they have a ten pound bag of food in their backpack for him and he eats first. I believed them.

Then there are other homeless who reek of alcohol. Does God love them any less? Or are begging for spare change while unable to stand up straight. Or who are huddled under the eave of a building. Or are muttering to themselves, or are like the woman that Nicole and I stopped to talk to who was pushing her two cats around in a stroller and was pretty batty. In fact the more we spoke to her, the more we realized just how out of touch she was.

But don't we really all want the same thing? Connection. Love. Touch. A home. A place to call our own...and it reminds me how quickly we assume we know other's stories and make snap judgments about them. And how those judgments often dissuade us from engaging in meaningful ways with others, because of how uncomfortable it might be for us. But yet, chances are it would be huge for the other person.

I have been thinking about this a lot with the loss of my dad. There are lots of people who haven't acknowledged the loss. They don't know what to say, or don't want to bring it up. But like any loss, (miscarriage, divorce...)it isn't reminding the person of anything they aren't immersed in anyway.

In fact, I think just the opposite is true, that it demonstrates caring. And I for one, appreciate that.

Go let someone know you care.

Peace.

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Saturday, December 6, 2008

Random Thoughts...

I have many, many thoughts swirling through my head that I want to share...here are a few; I will explore them more as time permits. There is a marathon being run today in Memphis, and I have been told if I don't get where I'm going by eight, then forget it, I have to wait for 11,000 runners to get across an intersection that is between where I am now and the church, so this will be brief.
  • The message of Christ is the message of Christ, but there are many ways of expressing that message.
  • God really did make me the way I am and it's totally OK to be who I am, whether that is sanctioned by others or not. We will never agree with everyone, or make everyone happy.
  • I am in a space at this event where I feel at peace and am worshipping within a sacred space.
  • I have made new friends.
  • I can't think of a better place to be than here going through my latest painful growth spurt.
  • There are others who feel like they are square pegs who have tried to fit into round holes in their faith life; I am not alone.
  • It is safe to ask questions, groan, pray and struggle with aspects of the journey we are on; there are fellow travellers.
  • I wish my guys could be here.

A day of peace in this advent season to you, my friends.

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Monday, May 19, 2008

grace notes

Grace notes. I first learned about grace notes when I was a flute student many, many years ago. In musical terms they are the small, quickly played notes that add to the melody of what is being played; a quick embellishment to the music being made.

Today, though, I am thinking about grace notes as embellishments to conversation. Going the extra mile so to speak. Just adding an affirmation, speaking with a smile, asking someone how they are in a sincere way and caring about and listening to their answer.

Wouldn't our conversation be so much more pleasant to others and pleasing to God if we just added a grace note every once in a while.

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