Hitting Roadblocks...

So today was a bit frustrating...I do some mystery shopping, which is a cool gig, until you go to write your reports and the computer doesn't cooperate. I filled out a couple of forms several times only to have it not transmit...and then discovered that two reports I filled online forms in for arrived at their destination blank. Same with a longer report. It represents a fair amount of time and no copy, so it all needs to be done over again, with no guarantee that it won't happen again. Sigh. So at least the next time I will print a copy of the completed form and can always send it snail mail. But I hate it when garbage like that happens. Annoyances that are time consuming and just draining.

And it seems like it was a day full of that kind of stuff.

For the time being our only working phone is a tethered land line on the desk in the kitchen. That's the phone that used to be in my study, since land lines are what they like you to do interviews on since the sound quality is better. For some unknown reason our cordless phones stopped working. I thought Tianna had worn the batteries out, but when I replaced the batteries, they still didn't work. When I borrowed Erin's phone to try, despite working at her house, they didn't work at my place either, so we are stuck with and settling for the tethered land line. It does have the positive effect of keeping us off the phone. A plus. But anyway, it rang several times, and every single stinking time I bolted downstairs from upstairs to answer it it was a telemarketer. My name has apparently expired on the do not call list,and I haven't gotten around to changing it.

Then we went to make chocolate chip cookies and didn't have enough flour. We didn't find a neighbor home till the third try.

What else? Oh, the cat puked all over an antique chair. I heard the retching this morning and just groaned. Something else to vacuum. Tianna has been telling me for two days now that I need to vacuum since I knocked over half a jar of honey roasted peanuts and they have attracted a huge colony of ants.

And we now have a huge harvest of pears (the peaches are done) that are attracting fruit flies to my kitchen.

Then I tried to call a friend who is going to help me organize (once I can actually find the floors to all of my rooms) and her number wouldn't go through.

Then to top it all off, I found out one of the two publishers that was still considering my pregnancy and childbirth book decided to pass, even though they really liked the writing, because they just haven't had good luck with health books. So I am bummed.

And I am in a quandary about mulling over the job I interviewed for; what if they offer it to me? Will I take it? Is that wise? What do I need to give up to make time? Is taking a job, even a part time job counter productive to all the work I have been doing with my life coach to become less stressed and more focused? Arghhh...I just ended up feeling bummed out and frustrated.

Feel free to add your thoughts...and I'm dead tired to boot. But tomorrow will be better, right?

Rays of Light, Rays of Hope

For today, a simple post. I was driving to drop my daughter off at a friend's house, and noticed the rays of sunshine peeking out at me from behind the clouds. I have a soft spot in my heart and soul for rays of sunlight just like these that emerge from behind the darkness. It is as if God is reaching down to let me know that whatever my desert experiences, it will be OK. No matter what pain, heartache, or absurd stupidity (like the fact that Little League won't accept our older daughter's birth certificate, ORIGINAL birth certificate at that...because it was issued more than a year after her birth date...well, duh, she was born in Vietnam half way around the world, and our wonderful US Government simply doesn't work that fast. Heck I can't ever get a real voice on the phone when I call Government offices...more on that later) the sunshine touches me with God's grace.
It is as if he is smiling down on me in reassurance and reminders that He will never leave me or forsake me, no matter how alone I may feel, or how much in control of several spinning out of control situations I would like to be.
So for today, for the rest of the day I will rest in His comfort, and pray that through my cracked and imperfect being some of His light will also shine out and touch others.