Now What?

I am exhausted, so this will be short. As a matter of fact, I needed to email a photo to the company I am doing nursing work for for a real ID (I am flabbergasted at how many people in Nursing Homes do NOT ask me who I am...) and I just go in and start reviewing charts. I always tell them who I am, but half the time there is no initial greeting, "may I help you," or, "what on earth do you think you are doing with that chart, we've never seen you before."

At any rate, while I was uploading the photo I fell asleep. Honestly, sitting here in bed with the lap top on my lap...

So my mom had her follow up appointment. The finding? Several small ischemic (without Oxygen) areas many focused in the memory center, kind of like mini little strokes, probably accounting for the cognitive changes she has been having. The doctor thinks she should move closer to medical care (i.e. here in Danville) and my dad won't budge. Nothing new, just now a personal dilemma.

This promises to be the hot topic that will go round and round and never end for the next several months/years, until a situation arises that DEMANDS immediate attention. Great, more remote parenting...which of course I will do, and don't begrudge, don't get me wrong. But I want what is best for them both, and for them, that is going to be difficult at best. Despite being married over 55 years, they share few common interests and have no common dreams as far as I can tell. I don't want this for my marriage and golden years. One of our (me and Howie) shared visions of a great marriage is that we hope and dream together about our future and despite being very different, we do share much in common (believe it or not!) Compassion, travel, tri athloning, scuba diving, helping others...

Nicole gave me a loud and stomping run for my money this morning and promptly earned herself some solitary time this afternoon.

I am fading. My mind keeps drifting, my eyes slipping shut and drool is forming in my mouth....

I am not very diva like today, just simply a squeezed gal. Well,OK,I'll take my tiarra and wand back; you never know when they might come in handy; but anyway, on to sleep.

Peace.

PS I edited this morning as I found several errors...I really was falling asleep in the middle of a sentence. Maybe I should go back to early morning blogging...